Where are my tears?

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fears, Poem, sadness, Tears

I promised myself tears,
I promised myself pain
I failed to uphold my fears
I didn’t even cry in the rain

What went wrong? What snapped?
Have the circuits all gone awry?
I always thought I would feel trapped
I always thought I’d endlessly cry

The memories no longer bring an ache
A smile, sometimes, a chuckle too
Wasn’t I supposed to crack and break?
Unable to know what I should do…

Why this clarity? Why this peace?
Forevermore an agony erased
Why didn’t the world end, but is at ease?
Why isn’t this the worst I have faced?

Death, thy gloomy hands don’t hold
Power over me anymore, anymore
I promised myself tears, but behold!
Today’s just another day, like before…

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Fears

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fears, stories

Begged all my life, to break this bubble
Begged and begged to get in trouble
I begged and pleaded, but the mind wouldn’t agree
What is it with this safety? I just couldn’t see…

I don’t remember breaking any bones
And I don’t remember throwing any stones
Or fighting or shouting or playing or riding
I guess my own memories are slipping and sliding

I’m wrapped up in a blanket, snug as a bug
With stories of bravery, and my old coffee mug
None of it is real, just fantasies I drew
But oh dear, oh dear, I wish it were true

That someday I’d stop being scared of the world
That someday I’d find the courage within me, unfurled
Till then though, I’ll be a teller of stories, my friend
Till the time my own fears fizzle out, I’ll pretend…